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I don't know when this term was coined or when it started but, in my opinion, most of the time it doesn't have any merit. People do and say stuff that other people disagree with so, that means we automatically have a cancel button in reach and press the button? This sounds ridiculous to me. I mean my last paragraph of my previous post seems a bit similar to this post, the difference is the just the words. Cancel culture and first amendment. I think if You want to be cancelled, You will get cancelled but if You don't want to be cancelled, You don't have to be. I think the term, cancel culture might be a mental thing and that mental can reduce the confidence of the average Joe. I guess if You have a high level of confidence, the term cancel culture won't bother You as much as the average Joe who is lacking confidence.  If cancel culture was around and if it involved me back in the day, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. Frankly, I wouldn't be here today,

 I don't know where to start so I guess I'm going to start somewhere (lol). Before I go into my analysis, (lol) this guy is such a mastermind of music and fashion, I have to give him his flowers. On the other side of the coin, lately he has been saying some outlandish stuff that has a lot of people upset. His name is Kanye West . I remember when I was in middle school, I accidentally stepped on some people's shoes and you know how people were and still are, like they got so offended by that accident and I always said I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that. I believe that Kanye West is that individual that thinks people step on his shoes on purpose, maybe some individuals do it on purpose purely because its Kanye West.  I got some unraveling to do. First, attacking or dehumanizing a group of people is a tasteless act especially when this group of people have been through so much at one time. The group of people that I'm talking about is the Jewish people, if people

 You know guys I've talked about LOVE multiple times and I'm going to talk about tonight as well.  Lately, I talked to my mom and sister on the phone and both occasions I thought I didn't say I LOVE YOU. The conversation I had with my mom, I actually said I LOVE her at the end of our conversation, my mom told me I said those words. When I had a conversation with my sister,  I hung up quickly and I forgot to say I LOVE her. I actually messaged her saying I LOVE YOU too. Many of you may say that what's this guy talking about, he's corny but with me, forgetting or thinking I forgot to say those three words ate me up inside.  Saying I LOVE YOU in my mind means an unconditional type of love that doesn't require any satisfaction back. Honestly, some satisfaction may be nice but mostly, I don't need any satisfactions back. What I'm saying is that I LOVE HARD because in a way, I was knocked down by a few people in the past and it sucked, it really did so th

This past weekend I saw the sequel of Black Panther and it was better in my opinion than the first one. I'm not discrediting the acting abilities of anyone in the first Black Panther. And before I begin my passionate writing, rest in peace Chadwick Boseman.  Both Black Panthers have a sense of community and lineage that can't be broken even though some enemies tried to dismantle the country of Wakanda but NO ONE succeeded. What I mean by community is that the people of Wakanda stick together regardless of the consequences. What I mean by Wakanda having a sense of lineage is that they respect their ancestors, they listen to their ancestors and elders, basically they respect and know where they come from. But that doesn't mean, the people of Wakanda don't know where they are going presently and for the future. I would also say that the Black Panther movies have a sense of nurture vs. nature. The people of Wakanda display nurture by having mercy on their enemies. As wel

 A couple a weeks ago, I watched a movie entitled Kidnap Capital and the movie made me more conscious but angry because even though its a movie, inhumane actions were depicted in the movie. Don't get me wrong, I liked the movie but my reaction to   Kidnap Capital  made me realize that the world is so fucked up in greed and power. I guess it would make better sense if I told you what the synopsis is. The synopsis is that this family wrangles up these immigrants that attempted to cross the border from foreign lands to escape from misery and discomfort but to find out the immigrants are forced to be dehumanized until they can pay for their freedom. Everybody has a boss and the people who are in "control" may or may not be in full control so there might be somebody who's up the chain calling the shots, you might never see the boss ever. Regardless of this inhumane hierarchy or any inhumane hierarchy, I don't condone any dehumanizing any group of people or marginaliz

  I think self-love has a lot to do with the confidence level you are currently facing. Self-love is a journey, like many other things are but how do You reach that self-love? I don't know the solution, maybe there are several solutions. Well, one of my earlier posts when I said I was dealing with some struggles growing up, I asked God why he gave me Joubert Syndrome, why did He give me this disorder? During my struggles, I didn't treat myself right. I didn't have a positive mindset which made me have a low self-esteem/confidence which led me to question God.  I didn't know the definition of self-love was and back in the day, I don't think the word self-love existed. Maybe the word did exist but the society that we live in wasn't concern for this word until a few years ago. When I fully accepted my disability, and when I didn't give a SHIT what people thought about me, I developed a sense of self-love. Discover and develop your own sense of self-love beca

Luke chapter 15, verse 24 says because this son of mine was dead and is alive again, he was lost and is found! So, they began to celebrate (Christian Standard Bible, Bible Gateway).   In that scripture, it says this son was lost but was still found.  I love movies as you guys know, and I was thinking of two movies that relates to my post title. One movie is titled The Hundred Foot Journey . The other movie is titled MDMA . I watched MDMA recently on Tubi.  The Hundred Foot Journey is starring the talented and gifted Oprah Winfrey. Without spoiling the synopsis for you guys, I'll give you one scene and that one scene is about how the chef got so much into himself and was so ego driven, he lost the essential things such as his homeland and humbleness. In my opinion, the chef was found when he got his hands on some Indian spices from India, where he is from originally. So, being lost for the chef means branching away from his heritage and getting absorbed with himself. But he was fou

 Death is going to happen whether we like it or not. Everybody deals with death differently. Some people may want to isolate themselves, some people may want to talk to everyone to express their feelings with God, family and friends and some people may lash out of frustration. I remember when I was in middle school and one of the students in my grade died. The next class I had was English and the teacher said if anyone wants to write something to the family, you could so I decided to write a letter to the family. Even though I didn't know the guy, we spoke often in the lunch line. After somebody dies, of course there will be some crying and trying to console others but I think the grieving process is an individual journey depending on how the deceased impacted their loved one(s) and it might be in general too. I titled this post grief and sorrow and there is always going to be grief and sorrow when somebody dies but in the midst of that grief and sorrow, blessings can occur.  Hop

  GOD DID for me is literal , I'm not talking about anybody else's spiritual and/or emotional journey or I don't know if you guys connect those two phrases with any type of journey but since this is my blog, I'm going to connect these two phrases with my journey because I truly believe I'm a deep individual a lot of times. I'm not deep for no reason, I'm deep because I've been through some REAL SHIT!! DJ Khaled made a masterpiece that is entitled GOD DID . God did a lot for me and will continue to do a lot for me. I don't want to assume but I'm pretty sure everybody has been through a form of fire, regret and/or trauma whether it would be drug and/or alcohol abuse, addiction to be popular, addiction to be too powerful, addiction to pornography, lost of a loved one(s) and there are so many fires, regrets and/or traumas but here is a few in my opinion. But the best thing that can come out of fires, regrets and/or traumas is tranquility, comfortab

 Last week I read a devotion in the book,  My Utmost For His Highest by Oswald Oswald Chambers to my grandfather. The devotion is pouring out the water of satisfaction. I don't read devotions, but my grandfather wanted me to read the devotion for that day, so I read it. You can read the devotion at your leisure but I'm going to give you my interpretation of this devotion and if you disagree or want to have a conversation about this, please comment. My interpretation is that God wants me and/or believers to pour out to Him. Pouring out to Him means give every problem and battle to Him and maybe then some after that. Also, God wants me and/or believers to stop being selfish with our wisdom, our gifts and levels of intelligence. We have to become or continue to be selfless. I think everyone on this earth has something to offer to others whether is knowledge, skill(s), or/and encouragement. This society is a ME society and I think we are becoming a WE society slowly, very slowly bu

 I'm going to be honest with you like I always do on this blog (lol). This is the first time I really felt scared in my adult life. I quit my job and I know it's going to be an uphill battle to find what's next for me but I prayed and will continue to pray and I give it up to the Lord after that . I cried but that crying helped me to cleansed me. There are so many chapters in my life already and there are going to be many more chapters to come. I can't talk about other people's lives, but my life has been like a roller coaster, even though many of our lives are roller coasters. Life is in constant motion and we need to keep with the times, but the times are rough and more rough to other people. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do but I know it's going UP from here and the second thing is I have to remind myself is that FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD. In other words, I have to work towards my goals and in addition with that I have to have continuous

  Everybody has a gift in this world no matter what social class or hierarchy ranking you are in. Whether you are homeless, rich as an emperor or a silent monk, EVERYBODY HAS A GIFT!! People may experience that/those gift(s) in different lengths of their lifetimes. For example, people might not know their gifts until they are sixty-five years old or as early as fifteen years old. Finding your gift(s) may span from years like the example above but it doesn't matter how long, it matters if you find your gift and then when you find it, it's your duty to use it to your advantage. People who find their gift(s) might not even know how to activate that/those gift(s). I think I found my gift when I was in the process of accepting my disability. My gift is inspiring others and encouraging others to do their best in-spite of what the current situations are. What are the gift(s) that you have and maybe the better question is what are the gifts that you want to have?

 Last night I was watching DJ Khaled on Drink Champs and he was talking about blossoming and progressing as an artist or/and as a human being. As I was watching I thought it would be fitting to write a post about blossoming. I think the prime example of something blossoming is flowers so I'm going to talk about flowers blossoming to us blossoming as individuals. I don't know the process of flowering but as for me and my experience I can tell that I'm still blossoming as an individual and that blossoming took and is still taking time. Like I always say, I'm not an overnight success, this process of successfulness took and is still taking time to shape. I'm not perfect and within blossoming I make mistakes. Flowers have pricks and I have many pricks (I'm just being honest). And flowers need sunlight and water for them to grow and for as human beings that is called a support system. We as individuals in society need to have support but not too dependent on other p

 My grandfather used to pick me up from work and he would always say while looking at torn down buildings and buildings that are about to be constructed on that this world is consistently changing and we have to make the adjustments. I don't think I have fully processed what he had said but I think what he wanted me to understand was that whatever the situation is, you have to deal with the constant changes that the world is making without or with your permission. For example, the doctors told me that I had Ocular Motor Apraxia and I had to adapt with me having the disability and then a handful of years later, the doctors then told me I have Joubert Syndrome and I have to re adapt myself and my brain on me having this disability. I think me adapting to the misdiagnosis to the diagnosis is pretty good. When I was younger, it was rough but a jewel is rough in the beginning until somebody polishes the jewel, right? God polished me and truth to be told, God is still polishing me. Ada

  I am black and when you see me you can obviously see that I'm black. I don't want to be any race other than black, but I also appreciate other races too. Like my other post, Respect The Religions, other races can contribute greatly to society and other people. People of other races and ethnicities can contribute to society in food, movies, art, religion and other factors as well. The words that I just mentioned can be under one word and that word is called culture . The race or/and ethnicity that came to mind is the Asian community. I love movies so here are some movies that represent Asian  actors/actresses/directors, Farewell starring Awkwafina, Boogie, (Pamelyn Chee, Taylor Takahashi, Perry Yung, Mike MoH and Eddie Haung as director and writer with a couple of other Asian American actors). Not just movies, tv shows represent Asian representation as well. The Tv shows that I'm talking about is Fresh Off The Boat, Hawaii Five-O, Warrior (the best show ever) and I'm

 Lately, more often than not I've been saying be safe to everybody like to my co-workers when they go home but when I say everyone, I mean everyone but to my African American brothers and sisters especially because all of these murders and brutalities caused by the police, you never know if you are going to get home safe. This really scares me because cops are supposed to protect and serve and not terrorize an entire community!! I'm not saying All cops do these inhumane acts of terrorism centered on a marginalized community but these cops out here doing these inhumane acts need to be held accountable for their racial motivated motives. Be Safe Out There in my own words means be cautious and stay alert and have God put a ring of protection around you at all times. Many cops don't have a source of peace or supernatural being in their lives to cope with their anger in a positive way, so their DUMBASSES decide to murder or/and terrorize and dehumanize black men, black women and

 Even though I'm a "Christian" or at least I was raised Presbyterian which is a branch of Christianity I can appreciate all of the religions. I don't have to follow the principles of certain religions, but I can appreciate the ideology or foundations of all religions. When I was in college, I took World Religion and the class was about all of the religions in the world big or small. One fact that interested me was that Buddhists I believe sweep the entrance of their step stools and doors to their houses or monastery. According to the gaurdian.com, Buddhists clean to remove ego and to establish inner peace , that's so fascinating!!  https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2018/jan/05/buddhist-monk-cleaning-good-for-you . Another interesting fact that I learned is that these spiritual gurus that know so much about their religious practice guide others who want to know about that religion guide them to enlightenment. I forgot the specific gurus name but that was fa

  I learn every day and I feel when you learn you have the ability to grow . For example, this year I told myself Noldon you need to read more so shortly after I bought two books. The first book I bought was Born A Crime by Trevor Noah and the second book I bought was The Perfect Day to Boss Up by Rick Ross with the help from Neil Martinez Belkin. I'm a slow reader but I'm still learning through reading these books and other literature. I learn through other people whether it's on tv or face to face. Learning is a process for me. I might learn slow but as long as I keep learning, that's what matters.  Praying is one of the biggest and important aspects in my life right now. The process of my prayer regime began when my mother started bringing me to church. Then the preacher kept reciting this scripture on multiple Sundays that says   Pray Without Saying. I pray till this day and will continue to do so regardless if the situations(s) is/are good, bad or/and ugly.  I a

 When I was having negative thoughts once upon a time, I didn't know that was associated with mental health. For the people who haven't read my older posts, I thought of committing suicide. Don't let those words, committing suicide scare you because that's part of my past and I own it, I don't deny it. I  was contemplating  suicide because people were teasing me because they didn't know how to react to my head motions and that led to lack of self acceptance. I have Joubert Syndrome now but then I had Ocular Motor Apraxia which deals with the fine motor skills. The most important thing that I had to figure out was if I was going to let my disability control me and be an introvert all of my life or grab the bulls by the horn and live the best life I possibly could. I chose to live the best life I possibly could and in the present can!! That's the wealth of my mental. This transformation didn't happen overnight, honestly I'm still transforming. Anyways

 When I hear the word artist, I usually think of a musician or a painter but lately I've been thinking that an artist can be a baker, a model, an individual who works on the exteriors and interiors on cars and a landscaper to name a few. A baker bakes deserts but when bakers make cakes they can add their own creativity and spin to the cakes.  I haven't watched this show called Cake Boss but I've seen bits and pieces of the show and those cakes that the bakers make are astounding.  A model can obviously be an artist. It's how they pose in pictures and when the models wear unique clothing, that adds to their artistry. What comes in mind now in the midst of writing this post are all of the fashion magazines.  Dancers at strip clubs can be artists. When I go to strip clubs, I'm so dumbfounded how the dancers dance a certain way on the poles. Some dancers are stiff on the poles though but none the less its still artistry.  A detailer who details the exteriors and inte

 I had this on my heart for a while (lol). I don't think it's a curse at all. These elite people (musicians, athletes and comedian) that the Kardashians/Jenner mafia choose to date or marry already have fame but when they get into the Kardashian/Jenner lifestyle, their fame is heightened. The Kardashians/Jenner mafia doesn't have anything to do with the heightened fame that these elite people get by the association of the mafia. The elite people choose to be with the mafia. The saying goes if you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen. I truly believe that the heightened fame that these elite people receive make them act reckless more than usual. Maybe they can't deal with the heightened fame.  As for me if the opportunity arises to date or marry one of the members of the mafia, I will definitely be tribute if these elite people will be acting foolishly towards the mafia. I think the mafia code is when you go against the family, you will be killed via beheadin

I was raised in a Presbyterian church in East Cleveland, Ohio and from there I learned how to communicate with God. I'm so grateful for that. It took me some time to develop that communication with God but I got there and I will keep getting there! As you guys know I got delivered from a dark place and I owe it to God and my mother who put me in church. Now seeing myself and looking at myself in the present I don't do all of the Christian duties that I need to do but one thing I do best is I  pray and I continue to pray . For me, praying gives me a peace of mind and a sense of clarity. God answers my calls too, not when I want to but when He wants to . I'll give you guys two examples. One example is when my father was hopping in his car to drive my sister and I to our high school and a winter blizzard came the previous night. I tried to shovel and my dad tried to shovel the snow underneath the car in order for the car to start going. I prayed to God and five minutes later