embrace positivity

 I can't speak for anybody except for myself when I say this, I try to be A GOOD PERSON each and everyday. When I wake up, I pray to God with a grateful mindset and try to live with that grateful plus positive mindset throughout the days and weeks. But, sometimes it works out but sometimes you want to choke motherfuckers out. I usually just think about it but never assault anybody (lol). I try to not hate anyone in life because when you hate, you are consumed with that hate and I want to surround myself with love. Honestly, I just hated two people in this lifetime but that's in the past so I'm over that shit now.      A few months back, I saw a movie entitled A GOOD PERSON starring Morgan Freeman and Florence Pugh. The synopsis in my own words is that a happy couple is enjoying life without any care in the world and suddenly, a horrific and painful incident happened and one's life is spinning out of control due to that painful incident and that individual is trying

It sucks when I put my emotions out there for a young lady/woman and I don't get the answer I want. But at the same time, even though I don't get the answers I want, I have to be proud that I stepped forward and exposed my vulnerability to these young ladies/women . A particular poem that I wrote and recited (Brown Sugar Baby) during an open mic at Negative Space in Cleveland, Ohio, I gave it to a young lady at the new job that I was working at. We both work in the same building but at different spots of the building. I work at a mom-and-pop restaurant and she comes in mostly everyday and I can only see her briefly but one day, I finally got up the courage to give the poem to her and I wrote a little note as well. I asked her if she could go out on a date with me. I couldn't speak, I was nervous as FUCK!! I think my heart skipped a beat. A couple days later, she told me that she had a boyfriend but she was nice about it, but that part didn't bring any less hurt. This i