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 Death is going to happen whether we like it or not. Everybody deals with death differently. Some people may want to isolate themselves, some people may want to talk to everyone to express their feelings with God, family and friends and some people may lash out of frustration. I remember when I was in middle school and one of the students in my grade died. The next class I had was English and the teacher said if anyone wants to write something to the family, you could so I decided to write a letter to the family. Even though I didn't know the guy, we spoke often in the lunch line. After somebody dies, of course there will be some crying and trying to console others but I think the grieving process is an individual journey depending on how the deceased impacted their loved one(s) and it might be in general too. I titled this post grief and sorrow and there is always going to be grief and sorrow when somebody dies but in the midst of that grief and sorrow, blessings can occur....

  GOD DID for me is literal , I'm not talking about anybody else's spiritual and/or emotional journey or I don't know if you guys connect those two phrases with any type of journey but since this is my blog, I'm going to connect these two phrases with my journey because I truly believe I'm a deep individual a lot of times. I'm not deep for no reason, I'm deep because I've been through some REAL SHIT!! DJ Khaled made a masterpiece that is entitled GOD DID . God did a lot for me and will continue to do a lot for me. I don't want to assume but I'm pretty sure everybody has been through a form of fire, regret and/or trauma whether it would be drug and/or alcohol abuse, addiction to be popular, addiction to be too powerful, addiction to pornography, lost of a loved one(s) and there are so many fires, regrets and/or traumas but here is a few in my opinion. But the best thing that can come out of fires, regrets and/or traumas is tranquility, comfortab...

 Last week I read a devotion in the book,  My Utmost For His Highest by Oswald Oswald Chambers to my grandfather. The devotion is pouring out the water of satisfaction. I don't read devotions, but my grandfather wanted me to read the devotion for that day, so I read it. You can read the devotion at your leisure but I'm going to give you my interpretation of this devotion and if you disagree or want to have a conversation about this, please comment. My interpretation is that God wants me and/or believers to pour out to Him. Pouring out to Him means give every problem and battle to Him and maybe then some after that. Also, God wants me and/or believers to stop being selfish with our wisdom, our gifts and levels of intelligence. We have to become or continue to be selfless. I think everyone on this earth has something to offer to others whether is knowledge, skill(s), or/and encouragement. This society is a ME society and I think we are becoming a WE society slowly, very slowly b...

 I'm going to be honest with you like I always do on this blog (lol). This is the first time I really felt scared in my adult life. I quit my job and I know it's going to be an uphill battle to find what's next for me but I prayed and will continue to pray and I give it up to the Lord after that . I cried but that crying helped me to cleansed me. There are so many chapters in my life already and there are going to be many more chapters to come. I can't talk about other people's lives, but my life has been like a roller coaster, even though many of our lives are roller coasters. Life is in constant motion and we need to keep with the times, but the times are rough and more rough to other people. I honestly don't know what I'm going to do but I know it's going UP from here and the second thing is I have to remind myself is that FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD. In other words, I have to work towards my goals and in addition with that I have to have continuous ...

  Everybody has a gift in this world no matter what social class or hierarchy ranking you are in. Whether you are homeless, rich as an emperor or a silent monk, EVERYBODY HAS A GIFT!! People may experience that/those gift(s) in different lengths of their lifetimes. For example, people might not know their gifts until they are sixty-five years old or as early as fifteen years old. Finding your gift(s) may span from years like the example above but it doesn't matter how long, it matters if you find your gift and then when you find it, it's your duty to use it to your advantage. People who find their gift(s) might not even know how to activate that/those gift(s). I think I found my gift when I was in the process of accepting my disability. My gift is inspiring others and encouraging others to do their best in-spite of what the current situations are. What are the gift(s) that you have and maybe the better question is what are the gifts that you want to have?

 Last night I was watching DJ Khaled on Drink Champs and he was talking about blossoming and progressing as an artist or/and as a human being. As I was watching I thought it would be fitting to write a post about blossoming. I think the prime example of something blossoming is flowers so I'm going to talk about flowers blossoming to us blossoming as individuals. I don't know the process of flowering but as for me and my experience I can tell that I'm still blossoming as an individual and that blossoming took and is still taking time. Like I always say, I'm not an overnight success, this process of successfulness took and is still taking time to shape. I'm not perfect and within blossoming I make mistakes. Flowers have pricks and I have many pricks (I'm just being honest). And flowers need sunlight and water for them to grow and for as human beings that is called a support system. We as individuals in society need to have support but not too dependent on other p...

 My grandfather used to pick me up from work and he would always say while looking at torn down buildings and buildings that are about to be constructed on that this world is consistently changing and we have to make the adjustments. I don't think I have fully processed what he had said but I think what he wanted me to understand was that whatever the situation is, you have to deal with the constant changes that the world is making without or with your permission. For example, the doctors told me that I had Ocular Motor Apraxia and I had to adapt with me having the disability and then a handful of years later, the doctors then told me I have Joubert Syndrome and I have to re adapt myself and my brain on me having this disability. I think me adapting to the misdiagnosis to the diagnosis is pretty good. When I was younger, it was rough but a jewel is rough in the beginning until somebody polishes the jewel, right? God polished me and truth to be told, God is still polishing me. Ada...