I GOT TO DO WHAT I GOT TO DO

It sucks when I put my emotions out there for a young lady/woman and I don't get the answer I want. But at the same time, even though I don't get the answers I want, I have to be proud that I stepped forward and exposed my vulnerability to these young ladies/women. A particular poem that I wrote and recited (Brown Sugar Baby) during an open mic at Negative Space in Cleveland, Ohio, I gave it to a young lady at the new job that I was working at. We both work in the same building but at different spots of the building. I work at a mom-and-pop restaurant and she comes in mostly everyday and I can only see her briefly but one day, I finally got up the courage to give the poem to her and I wrote a little note as well. I asked her if she could go out on a date with me. I couldn't speak, I was nervous as FUCK!! I think my heart skipped a beat. A couple days later, she told me that she had a boyfriend but she was nice about it, but that part didn't bring any less hurt. This is part of life, you win some, you lose some, but in my case, I lose them all (lol but I'm always hopeful). But when you don't succeed, try, try again. 




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