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 Last night I was watching Saturday Night Main event on Peacock, and I loved it!! Even though I loved the TV extravaganza, I thought the matches were short compared to the matches on Friday and Monday nights.  Also, I wanted Iyo Sky to win the Women's World Champion because I think Damage Control needs more of a push in regards of fan engagement and if Iyo Sky would've won, she would've won on that front, for her group as well. I wanted Damien Priest to win, I could see the yearn in his eyes to hold that title up high above his head. Another thing, I'm getting confused in the midst of all of this because there are a lot of championships in the industry.  Fast forwarding to the WWE moving to Netflix next year, I think it's mainly about more money. I'm not saying anything negative; I'm just expressing my statement (LOL), GET YOUR EXTRA MONEY Paul "Triple H" Levesque. I don't agree with Mr. Levesque's stance on keeping the WWE rating when it m...

Every Christmas Eve my dad's side of the family as of late we've had a tradition. The tradition is we go over my dad's house, eat dinner and all of us get to open presents. After all of that, we usually hang out, talk and have a merry ole time. But, last year on Christmas Eve, after we had our dinner, my sister decided to play a game and of course we said yes. I don't think anybody wanted to be a bad sport. I don't know the name of the game, but the concept is, it has two sides, one side has serious questions, and the other side has less serious questions and of course we had the side of serious questions and then we had to discuss the topics.  I love my sister's enthusiasm (bless her little heart) but those topics on the card made us release most of our emotions and then we got slightly off topic, the conversations got even deeper.      At this point, I didn't want to be vulnerable especially since it was the holiday season even though there are sad momen...

 During the span of the election, I was canvassing. If people don't know what canvassing is , it's just knocking on people's doors and for this particular canvassing it was for the past election. But in the midst of the canvassing, I got four dollars more on my paycheck than the previous paycheck and I was grateful. Other people might say it's just four dollars, but my employer didn't have to do that. That gesture was little but I was very grateful for that increase, how big or small it was. I would say I was always a grateful Indvidual but now since I'm older and gained a bit more wiser, I would say that I cherish the things that make me whole that aren't always monetary.     Also, I got a bonus of twenty five dollars after the job was over. I was jokingly asking for a bonus; I didn't expect to receive a bonus. This made me think of another thought and the thought is being humble. You never know what being humble and appreciative will get you. I'm n...

 I tried to stay awake for the remaining results of the election, but I went to bed at midnight. I was watching the live commentary on Peacock. I think you guys can imagine I was a bit unsettled and sad for the American people this morning when I opened X (formerly known as Twitter). I don't know a lot of the policies, but I know some vital issues (especially from this past election) that I can make a clear and concise opinion in the political sphere. The issues that I take very seriously and what I know is the abortion and immigration issue.      For any women who voted for Trump must be gullible to bullshit, I'm sorry for the bluntness but if somebody was trying to control my body, I WOULD SAY FUCK YOU AND THEN SOME! Obviously, I'm not a woman but reproductive rights should be for the woman to decide and not the man. This is a crucial issue because if a woman gets pregnant and decides she doesn't want the baby anymore, oh well, you're shit out of luck. You are st...

 I'm an advocate of mental health and I believe I said that in my earlier posts. I have a therapist and I'm very grateful for her because a lot of times she makes me think, oh, I haven't thought about it that way or that's an interesting point after I explain what went on that particular week for me. Other times, like this past week she just listens and doesn't say anything. Listening is crucial too because in my opinion, the receiver of the messages or that said communication is willing to sit quietly and absorb the individual's feelings.      I feel anxious sometimes, the first time I felt anxious was when I was working at the Ritz Carlton and had to leave within nine months (lol) after a management issue. While I was looking for another job, my grandfather died during that time. I knew I had to get some help. I felt overwhelmed, sad and angry. You can say a mixture of emotions was boiling inside me and I didn't know what to do so I decided to seek some he...

 As you guys know, I'm a Clevelander and I will always be a Clevelander. I love the Cavs and the Browns, how can I not?, my hometown is Cleveland. Even though I briefly mentioned the Cavs, I'm going to talk about the Browns for a bit. Every year the Browns say this year is our year and I always want to believe them because that's my team, but most of the seasons weren't winning seasons for them besides last year. Last year was incredible when we got into the playoffs with Joe Flacco.      Even though this current season just started, the Browns are to a rough start. This past Sunday, the Browns faced the Washington Commanders and let me just say, the Browns weren't making me jump for joy. I think Deshaun Watson had a good game minus getting sacked several times. When he threw the ball to his teammates, they didn't catch the ball. Watson threw accurate passes. Mistakes happen but if I got paid millions of dollars, I would put some glue on my gloves to make sure...

 I tuned into the speech late but what I saw was two men acting respectful and cordial towards one another for the most part. I felt like other times, they would've slapped each other silly. I'm going to give you my thoughts about the debate. I think Vance did much worse than Walz and I'm going to explain.     First, I think Walz was stumbling on some words throughout the debate, but those things happen. The stumbling of words isn't something to fret about. But oh man, Vance is another story! First, Vance can't blame everything on the migrants. What have they done to the American people or Vance's inner circle? My response is not a DAMN THING. The only guilty thing that the migrants have done and it's not really anything guilt related, they're just trying to improve their lives for the better. I would buy a blowtorch, jackhammer and any tool to dismantle that MOTHERFUCKING wall and when I'm finished, I'll scream, FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST, THAN...

  Every so often, Hollywood makes a movie about slavery and when the actors and actresses get interviewed and asked by various media outlets, why another slave movie? I'm going to weigh on this topic for a bit and my response would be, if you are going to ask that question, the question should also be directed to the actors and actresses who play in movies about the holocaust. Then, I had to think longer on this topic, and I came to the conclusion that these movies depicting on how African Americans and people of Judaism faith were/are treated, Hollywood needs to make more of these movies because generations to come will learn a bit when watching these movies. The generations to come will have to do some research too if they plan on exploring more on this topic. Also, these movies will shut up the deniers that the holocaust did happen. In history class during my high school career, my teacher said some people still don't believe that holocaust didn't happen. Or in other wo...

This past Saturday, I went to a local bar called the Winchester on the west side of Cleveland. My boss is in a band and the band was playing that night. I like to support people even if that art form is new to me . Me seeing the band was exciting, also it was another big happening that night. I asked if the bartender if she had a boyfriend and unfortunately, she said yes. If she said no, I would have been jumping for joy and after jumping for joy, I would 've then asked her if she wanted to go out on a date and then we skip down the yellow brick road oh so lovely. I was hella sad and what even made me more sad was when she turned on some sad country music. I told myself let me get my ass out of here (LOL). I had a lot of drinks that night because I was celebrating my boss's band performing live for the first time since the stone ages (lol), but for a very long time. Anyways, I had hella drinks that night but thank God I mellowed out by the time I asked her. Imagine if I was ...

A sense of enjoyment was in my heart last night. It was my first time at a burlesque show . I really enjoyed myself and I didn't even have to pay twenty to sixty bucks per song (LOL). Even though dancers at strip clubs and burlesque dancers are similar I believe, there are tiny differences between the two, but I don't know what they are. What I know is that there is a whole movement out there for the burlesque dancers, like communities that support these burlesque dancers. One community that support these dancers are the LGBTQIA community and that community is within the burlesque dancers as well. A sense of community is needed, especially for the people who are outcasted and marginalized. The second thing I noticed is that there is so much sexual freedom of expression and just self expression in general. People outside looking in can be very judgmental because people who don't know what other people's customs or ideologies are, they can get judgy and angry. Honestly, t...

 For the past couple months, I have been experiencing a sense of crossroads in my life. Even though I haven't lived All of my life, it seemed like I was cycling through this constant of uncertainty. I wouldn't call it a midlife crisis, I would say it a younglife crises (lol). Even though that joke was funny in my opinion, I'm being serious! ! For example, I really like my job currently, but I've been there for two years and I want a challenge, a challenge that will be more financially sound. I know money isn't everything but here are the facts: I'm a thirty-year-old man and I want my life to be secured financially when I want to retire.      So, I prayed and I'm continuing to pray and its getting better. In my earlier posts, I said praying centers me and gives me a fresh perspective and praying still gives me that sense of secureness that the Lord has me. I have to stay the course because if I don't stay the course I will keep cycling that uncertainty. ...

 A couple of nights ago, I watched this movie entitled Kajillionaire starring Richard Jenkins and the ravishing Gina Rodriguez on Peacock. The movie had its comedic parts but overall, it is a thought-provoking movie in my opinion. You should watch the movie when you get a chance. Anyways, I'm going to express my feelings towards this movie without hopefully not spoiling the synopsis. There is a mother, daughter and a father who are low level criminals, but the daughter seems aloof from reality, her mind is just set on the low level crimes they do and nothing else until the character played by Gina Rodriguez steps into the low level criminal enterprise. As the daughter played by the ravishing Evan Rachel Wood connects more with Gina Rodriguez's character, the daughter opens up more. A parenting class helped the daughter open up and made her realize her parents didn't love her, they were just having her around as part of the crime team, not as a daughter.       W...

Life is definitely a test, if you want to stand and take the challenge, you can and that's GREAT but if you don't want to take the challenge, you don't have to and from personal experience, I think that's the wrong move because even though we have challenges in life, DON'T GIVE UP ON LIFE, you/we have to go through the obstacle courses. The obstacle courses might be short, they might be long but along the way, you might befriend someone or multiple people to help you figure out how to maneuver through those obstacle courses. Sometimes, you just have to maneuver though obstacle courses by yourself and THAT IS OK, I'm pretty sure maneuvering through those obstacle courses with someone would be special but sometimes IT IS WHAT IT IS, but you/we will get through those obstacle course together via positive energy, positive thinking and positive mantras. Life is a journey too and along that journey, there will be incredible highs and unbearable lows, or we think the l...

 I work in downtown Cleveland and it's no different than any other downtown in a city in regards of the homeless population. Most of the homeless population that I experience around the city of Cleveland ask for money, food and etc., if I have something, I'll give it to them but if I don't have anything they leave me alone. The homeless or the unfortunates around where I work are aggressive verbally. I don't think they mean to, but they are. It's interesting because some days they are really aggressive but the next day, they are so polite. I don't want to assume but my prediction is some of them have mental issues. Sometimes I feel extending grace to them but other times, I have to be firm with them and be slightly aggressive right back. For example, it was an unfortunate individual who wanted food and when an employee of the restaurant said no (in a polite manner), the unfortunate individual said FUCK YOU. The rest of the employees didn't want to have anyt...

 As I see and hear all of the current events in the news, I just ask myself where's the love? This world is a beautiful place, but human beings find ways to fuck it up in negative ways. From domestic disputes to international disputes, it's all hate interactions, not love interactions. Well, I'm pretty sure there are SOME love interactions domestically and internationally but I'm using the word SOME loosely. The two international current events are the Israeli and the Russian war. I don't know a lot about the wars so I'm not going into detail about them, but I am going to still express my opinions.      Firstly, the Israeli war have been going on for centuries but as of late, Palestine have been at war with the holy country. There are pro-Palestine protests on college campuses around the country and if you want to know why, just turn on your local news outlet. People say that they aren't worried about what's going on overseas while kids are dying const...

 As I told you guys, I am trying to be on a positive path dealing with my mental state or if I haven't told you guys, I'm telling you now (lol). Anyways, I am trying to develop this blissful nature journey everyday, but of course non pleasant and rude folks try to tear you down and its DAMN hard to fight them off, but you know what, I'm STILL HERE and I'm not going to let those motherfuckers win. Those motherfuckers crawl under my skin but at the end of the day, they aren't going to win, they think they are winning but in the midst of their thinkable winnings, they are losing because they are lost in the sauce. In other words, they don't have any purpose in their lives. Since they don't have any purpose in their lives, they want to puncture and wound me and their ultimate goal is to beat me down to their level and they want me to feel what they feel which is emptiness but it's not going to happen. I've been through that dark place in my life, and I d...

I want to say as a nation we are doing better than ever in regards of fighting for equality and injustices but that would be a bold face lie. I'm not just talking about the figure heads who are leading equality movements, I'm also talking about ME and YOU, day to day contact with one another. I think we as people need to act cordial or more than cordial to people in social settings .  We definitely made efforts to fight for equality and injustices and I'm not going to discredit those efforts but how many times are we going to overcome? Dr. Reverand Martin Luther King Jr's birthday was last week and his goal was simple, FIGHT FOR EQUALITY and END DISCRIMINATION for all people. Well, if the Reverand was living today, I think he would be very distraught and disturbed at the fact that his work didn't mean a DAMN thing during the Civil Rights Movement. But, I think he would still fight for equality and try to end discrimination until the blood runs out of his body. W...

 I know I'm thirteen days in the New Year but for me and for people near and far for the New Year, I want us to be wholehearted spiritually, emotionally, physically and spiritually. I know that's a large wish because life can be very grand, but life also can be very troublesome . In other words, life can be a roller coaster filled with negatives and positives, ups and downs; negative forces/people trying to tear you down but at the end of the day, I guess we all have to find a way to better ourselves in moments of uncertainty and guide thru life as blissfully as we know how whether that guide is ourselves, a licensed professional. or loved ones. As I'm writing this, I'm thinking to myself that I might just try to focus on myself being wholehearted this year because a lot of people around the globe aren't on the same wavelength as me. As of late, I've been going to therapy and since I'm going to therapy, I would say I want to be on a positive and fruitful ...