embrace positivity

      For the longest time, I had doubt in mind, specifically self-doubt. I was unsure of myself and that caused me to question myself multiple times, like am I good enough and could I achieve little to big accomplishments! Like I said before in previous posts, overcoming obstacles like low self-esteem and low confidence didn't come overnight. Overcoming these obstacles took years to manage and I had to do a lot of inner healing and reflecting within myself and thru and to God. Don't get me wrong, from time to time, I still have doubt but now I can handle or manage it better than before.     You may ask yourself why I'm telling you all of this? The answer is simple, because having doubt is normal but don't let doubt consume your life and then life passes you by because you are afraid of the next step or anything that will prevent you accomplishing what you set out to accomplish. The phrase Denzel Washington said in the Equalizer is spot on. He said dou...

 As all of us know is that Thanksgiving was last week in the United States. As I gathered around my family for prayer at my grandmother's house, I was reflecting on my grandfather not being there and of course I was sad but, then I was also reflecting on how blessed I am and how my family is blessed.   One of the many missions that my grandfather was passionate about was helping the less fortunate. My grandfather always told me to give (monetary) to the less fortunate and don't worry what they do with the money, that's not our business, as long as we give. So, I'm THANKFUL that he instilled that in me in his later years when he was still alive. I'm THANKFUL for my dad's and mom's side of the family even though we bicker and fight but at the end of the day, we are STILL FAMILY.  I'm THANKFUL that God wakes me up every morning even though I don't deserve it since I'm a FILTHY MOTHERFUCKER!! On a personal level, I'm THANKFUL for my disability, t...

 A month ago, my family celebrated my mother's birthday and retirement for three days. My mom's birthday is October 1st and she retired from being an educator last summer. We would've celebrated last year but sad to say, my grandfather passed away and for a few months then, we were in mourning so that wouldn't be the right time to celebrate.      My mother is my mother, she's strict but fair. Sometimes I didn't agree what she did, but I love her so much!   She taught in Prospect Elementary School in East Cleveland, Ohio for many years. I believe she taught all of the grades. Then an opportunity opened up at Cleveland School of the Arts, the lower campus as an assistant principal. She stayed in that position for a few years and then another opportunity opened up and she became principal at the same school. What my mother taught me was HAVE FAITH, STAY THE COURSE, WORK HARD and NEVER GIVE UP. Alot of times, I just watch her actions and it's no need for v...

  Everybody has demons or everybody has struggles, whatever you want to phrase it, but the bottom line is everyone has something or multiple things that they are going through. Last weekend at the movies, I saw A Haunting In Venice and the character playing the retired detective said something related to ghosts haunting people and revealing their secrets at the end of the movie and that statement stuck with me. Maybe I wrote a similar post like this but who cares, I'LL DO IT AGAIN!! Anyways, conjuring up demons might be easy, but it might not be so easy to stop the demons circling inside of people. People might not want those demons to stop growing inside of them either, those demons can create erosion over time if that's the case!!   I think I have demons in my life, but I also have angels in my life and those angels pour more into me than the demons do, thank God for that!! I have devilish tendencies, of course but since I want to gain a peaceful and grac...

I LOVE LIFE, and I'm not just saying that to say that, I LOVE IT even though I have ups and downs, I try to stay focused and be positive throughout life and I will continue to be positive and stay focused on the main goals/achievements in life and that equals to hopefully future  prosperity and financial prosperity. The main goals/achievements in life FOR ME is to remain humble, grateful and be patient with myself throughout life, maintain a solid relationship with family and friends, continue to travel and have a meaningful career/job path (in and outside of 9-5). In the midst of having those goals/achievements, I am enjoying life and there are a lot of enjoyable moments in my life and some particular moments that I really enjoy is when I recite my poetry.  When I recite my poetry on a stage, I feel there is no one that can touch me. There's just one mic, myself and my poetry. There is a lot on going on stage, the confidence on getting up on stage, eye contact with the audien...

I notice that some people who accept awards or give speeches say Keep God first and I can't help but think of how I keep or try to Keep God first in my life. I am a filthy creature with bad habits and the Lord knows this, HE KNOWS ALL!! But at the same time, I truly believe I'm a decent, honest and kind human being that happens to be filthy from time to time. Anyways, I pray, have a positive energetic vibe about me. I don't read my Bible all that much, that's the only task that I need to work on but for the most part, I try to Keep God first. I don't know what it ALL takes to Keep God first but I think I'm close to the border in regards of keeping God first OR in the middle of the Pacific Ocean , who knows, ONLY THE BIG GUY KNOWS. 

 We all judge, that's our human nature, well at least that's what my bio ethics teacher told me in my senior year of high school. What if it was possible for us not to judge? I don't know but what I do know is that I try not to judge. People have judged me in the past so why would I judge others for their actions, that's just the way I'm thinking. There are many scenarios and current events in this world that people judge upon and some acts need to be judged heavily. For example, those cops who shoot innocent Black and Brown women, men and children without just arrests and representation. The cops that do these heinous crimes/acts do need to be judged heavily. An example of groups that don't need to be judged heavily are the Asian American and the LGBTQ+ community. For those who are aligned and associate themselves with the LGBTQ+ should live their lives and they can spread their wings in any direction they want to in my personal opinion because that's thei...