embrace positivity

 When I was having negative thoughts once upon a time, I didn't know that was associated with mental health. For the people who haven't read my older posts, I thought of committing suicide. Don't let those words, committing suicide scare you because that's part of my past and I own it, I don't deny it. I  was contemplating  suicide because people were teasing me because they didn't know how to react to my head motions and that led to lack of self acceptance. I have Joubert Syndrome now but then I had Ocular Motor Apraxia which deals with the fine motor skills. The most important thing that I had to figure out was if I was going to let my disability control me and be an introvert all of my life or grab the bulls by the horn and live the best life I possibly could. I chose to live the best life I possibly could and in the present can!! That's the wealth of my mental. This transformation didn't happen overnight, honestly I'm still transforming. Anyways...

 When I hear the word artist, I usually think of a musician or a painter but lately I've been thinking that an artist can be a baker, a model, an individual who works on the exteriors and interiors on cars and a landscaper to name a few. A baker bakes deserts but when bakers make cakes they can add their own creativity and spin to the cakes.  I haven't watched this show called Cake Boss but I've seen bits and pieces of the show and those cakes that the bakers make are astounding.  A model can obviously be an artist. It's how they pose in pictures and when the models wear unique clothing, that adds to their artistry. What comes in mind now in the midst of writing this post are all of the fashion magazines.  Dancers at strip clubs can be artists. When I go to strip clubs, I'm so dumbfounded how the dancers dance a certain way on the poles. Some dancers are stiff on the poles though but none the less its still artistry.  A detailer who details the exteriors and ...

 I had this on my heart for a while (lol). I don't think it's a curse at all. These elite people (musicians, athletes and comedian) that the Kardashians/Jenner mafia choose to date or marry already have fame but when they get into the Kardashian/Jenner lifestyle, their fame is heightened. The Kardashians/Jenner mafia doesn't have anything to do with the heightened fame that these elite people get by the association of the mafia. The elite people choose to be with the mafia. The saying goes if you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen. I truly believe that the heightened fame that these elite people receive make them act reckless more than usual. Maybe they can't deal with the heightened fame.  As for me if the opportunity arises to date or marry one of the members of the mafia, I will definitely be tribute if these elite people will be acting foolishly towards the mafia. I think the mafia code is when you go against the family, you will be killed via beheadin...

I was raised in a Presbyterian church in East Cleveland, Ohio and from there I learned how to communicate with God. I'm so grateful for that. It took me some time to develop that communication with God but I got there and I will keep getting there! As you guys know I got delivered from a dark place and I owe it to God and my mother who put me in church. Now seeing myself and looking at myself in the present I don't do all of the Christian duties that I need to do but one thing I do best is I  pray and I continue to pray . For me, praying gives me a peace of mind and a sense of clarity. God answers my calls too, not when I want to but when He wants to . I'll give you guys two examples. One example is when my father was hopping in his car to drive my sister and I to our high school and a winter blizzard came the previous night. I tried to shovel and my dad tried to shovel the snow underneath the car in order for the car to start going. I prayed to God and five minutes later ...